Fuck cancer!

I spent yesterday with several doctors. It appears that my cancer is back and it has spread to my liver. This won't be confirmed until after next Tuesday, 07/03, when I have my gallbladder and ovaries removed. The surgeon is going to biopsy my liver at the same time, but both he and my oncologist are fairly certain it is cancer. Fortunately, I had gallbladder issues or it would not have been caught anytime soon. It did not show up on any of my bloodwork two weeks ago.

I am devastated and have my prescription of Xanax to help deal with what needs to be done until surgery next week.

Fuckity fuck fuck fuck. Cancer sucks!

I'm a vegetarian!!

I thought about it for years so my body made the decision for me. I have lost ten pounds in less than two weeks. Maybe, I'll be pretty one day. Then I can stop playing the role of platonic female friend.

my typing skills have severely declined...

in recent months. I don't know if it is my brain or my fingers. I stopped biting my fingernails recently. Maybe that is it. Now I keep scratching myself accidentally. I'm a mess!