calm before the storm

So many thoughts running through my head what with all of my past loves whether gay or straight returning to contact me within the past six months or so. Confusion as to what to do with all of this. The one who remained constant, for the most part, wants me to be who I was not who I am. At least, I feel that way when I communicate with him. I revert back to that Shana which is not a good thing. I never thought I would get these opportunities at closure so I am completely and utterly dumbfounded. One relationship has been resolved. In my head, all but one is left. I just don't want to hurt the one who was constant. The others do not matter... anymore.