reasons

for not posting better blogs with writing. I have been extremely angry and emotional with everything that has been going on (mom's cancer, having to work while son is spending all my money in Florida, all the changes at work). Some of it is too personal and much of it is irrational. I know that. I cannot stand the waiting for my mom's genetic testing. I am trying to be positive, but need to prepare myself if she tests postive. Worst case scenario: I will have to get all the parts that define me as a woman removed. I hope to hell it is not genetic.